thoughts and ramblings

He went outside to get some fresh air. He'd been in his room so long that the stillness had started to get to him. He felt irritable, itchy all over. He rolled up the edges of his comfortable jeans so he wouldn't step on them as he went outside. He didn't feel like wearing any shoes; the coolness of the grass between his toes would be refreshing. He walked quietly through the living room where his mum lay asleep on the sofa. She had had a long day and he didn't want to wake her. He unlocked the back door and slipped out. As he stood on the grass he closed his eyes and took a deep breath of the cool, sweet night air. It was still, there was barely any traffic noise. For a moment he felt calm and content, but that was until he looked up at the night sky expecting to see stars. Instead, he saw a dull, blank, empty expanse lit by the dull glow of light pollution from the city. And he hated it. He hated everything about that moment. He clenched his fist, he gritted his teeth. His brows sunk down into a scowl. He hated living so close to a city, there was never a moment when it was totally silent and there was always that glow blotting out most of the stars, if not all of them. At that moment he hated every single person living in that city. Every single person lighting up the sky with their pitiful, pathetic lives that he didn't care anything about.
He closed his eyes tight and shook his head to try and clear this dark haze that was in his mind. He didn't like having thoughts and feelings like that. But it's difficult to shake discontent and hate and wanderlust off. He felt like he was trapped in a tiny box - like the sky was merely 6 or so feet above his head; only just out of his reach. He looked up at the sky for one final time, turned and walked slowly up the back steps of his house, his hands thrust deep into the pockets of his jeans.
He was stuck. Stuck in this little box with no sign of escape. With a sigh he gripped the handle of the door and pushed back inside.

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Thursday night. I hate Norwich more and more. I need to get out for a bit, and soon.